Thursday 16 June
One of the pre-conditions of the Esperance seeing me was to have a referral letter from my GP which, as you might imagine, could have been a challenge in itself. But, I was very lucky to get an appointment this morning with a locum GP. He listened to my story and hand wrote a referral letter there and then as well as giving me a fit note (saying I wasn’t fit) and, when asked his advice, suggested that an MRI scan would probably help with planning any treatment. What a lovely man, the complete opposite of the consultant yesterday, he had time and compassion and showed understanding.
This afternoon I spent an hour on the phone to the department of work and pensions as I have discovered that, although self-employed, as I have paid my National Insurance contributions I am able to claim something from the government whilst I am off!! I don’t know how much yet but anything is better than the nothing I am earning at the moment. I have also been advised to contact Lewes District Council and see if they can help with the council tax whilst I am incapacitated. Both of these authorities were friendly and it is quite reassuring to find that there is some kind of support mechanism when one really needs it.
My shoulder is still achy lots but there are times during the day when I forget that I have damaged it. Then I try do something with it and I soon remember that it is still broken! Really horrible feeling this evening, as I sat on the sofa I could feel the muscles in my shoulder relaxing which felt good as they have all been very tight since Monday. They must have relaxed too much because I tried to move and it felt like the bones in my shoulder jammed on each other!! I had a horrible couple of minutes of big pain and panic as I tried to move my arm in every direction to un-jam the bones. I managed it but was sweating and breathing hard by the end of it. Hurry up Monday and the second opinion.
I have discovered that the sling I am using has a tendency to pull my shoulder backwards because of the attachment point on the end of the elbow. I think this may have helped to jam my shoulder earlier. Now I have moved the loose end of the strap onto the front in an attempt to balance the pull on my shoulder.