Friday 17 June
Most of this morning was spent researching treatment options on the internet and formulating question for the consultant on Monday. Maxine and I have a saying whenever either of us go to the Health Service for help, we say “We are in good hands - our own!”
Don’t get me wrong, I think that the NHS is a brilliant institution and there are many people that I know personally who are alive and healthy because of the NHS. But the service has its’ agenda which is more about keeping the population vertical and working within a budget without much consideration to the quality of life that patients experience after treatment. This is a natural result of a large organisation which relies on statistical results and has a finite budget. Also the service de-personalises people by terming everyone as a patient and considering us through the distorting lens of the bio-medical model. (Bio-medical model suggests that the patient is made up of several biological systems which are totally separate from each other and a problem in one system can be “cured” without reference to any other system or the person as a whole).
Anyway, the NHS is a great system if you go into it still taking responsibility for yourself and exercising a degree of control over the outcomes they suggest. Which is why we say “We are in good hands - our own!” Of course when you feel ill, frightened, vulnerable and helpless is a very hard time to exercise that control which is why I am so very grateful to have Maxine by my side.
I would like to thank everyone who has sent me messages of support and help over the past few days. I am humbled and grateful for so much support. I feel lifted to know that I mean something to so many people. Thank you.
My Shoulder feels a little stronger and has now got a lovely yellow bruise coming through from the top of the projecting bone down the front of my chest fanning out slightly across my right pectoralis. Tried to take a picture but it didn’t show much. I will see what happens in the next few days.